When I say it is different..When I say it is new..When I say pasts are over…Will you see my words true?Because I know that I mean them..Because I know that they’re real…Because I know they say much less…Than what I really feel..But will you allow me to be scared…And will you allow me to wait…ForContinue reading “New”
Honeyed lies drank from poisoned lipsLaid my careful plans to wasteThose empty words and hidden bitesAte me up insideYet I’m still craving a taste. Because all we really seem to wantIs what might kill us fastest.Consumed by our needsFor the food of our detriment And a sip of the deadliest drinkFilling up on love. IContinue reading “Bitter tastes”
The final wish’s been spoken,The final word’s been said,The final die’s been cast,Now all that’s left’s regret. So I’ll just blast this on repeat,Until I believe those words,Because when all is said and done,Only real love really hurts.
‘It’s ok.’They tell me.‘You were just brainwashed,by him and the scene he painted.’ And I’ll smile a crooked smileAsking them ‘what brain?’‘I lost that way before him.’‘I’ve always been out of my mind.’ ‘It’s the heart that he stole.’‘And the love that he took,that now leave me feeling empty.’ It’s when their helpful eyes hardenIt’sContinue reading “Crooked smile”
This weekend, in an attempt to be a healthy person, I decided a brisk walk in the fresh air would do me some good. Plus, any excuse to play some more Pokemon Go is a valid one, I figured. Gotta hatch them eggs somehow, right? So I tugged on some sweatpants, a shirt and aContinue reading “Forget-me-yes”
I had a talk with my manager today about my progress and learning curve in my new job. It was a good talk. Way more positive than I’d pictured it beforehand (damn impostor syndrome) and a great clarification on my results these past few months. You see – when it comes to my new endeavorsContinue reading “Same mistakes”
A little sparrow flew into my living room French doors today. Not because they’re so impeccably clean that you think they might be open, mind you, because I am a lot of things in life, but not a frequent window-cleaner. The dull thud when it hit the glass distracted me from something I was editingContinue reading “Damn ‘Rona”
Who locked the door on me, Who took away my sun. Who found a way to steal… All that I thought I had become? Who made my world go dark Who holds that smoking gun Who is the one to blame… Wait. I guess I’m the only one.
I let the heat engulf my body,As I slide into the water slow.Slip my head beneath the surface,And ponder what I know… While my oxygen runs out,And my chest begins to burn,Like it has these past few months,When I was forced to learn… That I will be alone,Not just in this porcelain tomb,With my headContinue reading “The burn”
As I wait for the next batch of food to arrive,From the hands of another stranger..I stare at a lonely crumb on the edge of the couch. So gruesomely brokenTorn away from the whole it once was.Just a remnant of a previous self. Useless now. A mere distraction.And just a reason for cleaning up.No longerContinue reading “Cookie crumbles”