He’s just not that into you.

“We’re taught that in life, we should try to look on the bright side, to be optimistic. Not in this case. In this case, look on the dark side. Assume rejection first. Assume you’re the rule, not the exception.” ― Liz Tuccillo, He’s Just Not That Into You It’s been romcom season in casa diContinue reading “He’s just not that into you.”

The ‘Not Enough/Too Much’ issue of love.

Breakups are the ideal time for self-reflection and a whole lotta talking. Personal growth – or so they say. I usually just translate it to a lot of ‘self-care’ instead. Which pretty much translates to binging (drinks, fastfood and Netflix) the memories and pain away. Brutal but effective. There always comes a point, however, whenContinue reading “The ‘Not Enough/Too Much’ issue of love.”

I did the math. And boy. Do I suck at math.

Yesterday I turned my mattress back the 180 degrees that I’d shifted it at the start of my latest attempt at an ‘us’.Putting it back as it has been in the previous years of sleeping alone and in doing so drawing the line under what ‘we’ had been. Over. Now.Moving it back into the singleContinue reading “I did the math. And boy. Do I suck at math.”

I can’t even remember

Darling,Can you recall the last time you hurt?Really hurt?Hurt so bad you couldn’t breathe?Hurt so deep you couldn’t see?Hurt so much you couldn’t bear?I bet you think you can.I bet you think you should.I bet you think you have to. Need to even.But I also bet that you don’t.That you can’t really recall the burn.Continue reading “I can’t even remember”

Bitter tastes

Honeyed lies drank from poisoned lipsLaid my careful plans to wasteThose empty words and hidden bitesAte me up insideYet I’m still craving a taste.  Because all we really seem to wantIs what might kill us fastest.Consumed by our needsFor the food of our detriment And a sip of the deadliest drinkFilling up on love.  IContinue reading “Bitter tastes”

(Not that) Easy to Forget

Over the years I’ve grown accustomed to picking my head over my heart when it comes to making a lot of the decisions I make in life. Not without a fight, obviously, because as it so happens – my heart and brain are very seldom on the same page about a lot of things. TheContinue reading “(Not that) Easy to Forget”

Heart on lockdown

I thought of you, Each time I tried something new, And I stopped trying, So I wouldn’t have to.   I thought of you, Each time I fucked someone new, And I stopped fucking, So I wouldn’t have to.   I thought of you, Every time I drank something new, And I stopped drinking, SoContinue reading “Heart on lockdown”