Same mistakes

I had a talk with my manager today about my progress and learning curve in my new job. It was a good talk. Way more positive than I’d pictured it beforehand (damn impostor syndrome) and a great clarification on my results these past few months. You see – when it comes to my new endeavorsContinue reading “Same mistakes”

The burn

I let the heat engulf my body,As I slide into the water slow.Slip my head beneath the surface,And ponder what I know… While my oxygen runs out,And my chest begins to burn,Like it has these past few months,When I was forced to learn… That I will be alone,Not just in this porcelain tomb,With my headContinue reading “The burn”

Cookie crumbles

As I wait for the next batch of food to arrive,From the hands of another stranger..I stare at a lonely crumb on the edge of the couch. So gruesomely brokenTorn away from the whole it once was.Just a remnant of a previous self. Useless now. A mere distraction.And just a reason for cleaning up.No longerContinue reading “Cookie crumbles”

Breach the walls

You slipped in unnoticed, Through a tiny crack – in the walls I’d so carefully kept. Took up your space, In a heart unbroken – Unphased by its limitations. Then left chaos in your wake, as you tore down those walls, and left behind a gaping void – in a heart now framed in jaggedContinue reading “Breach the walls”

A simple sum

So about this ‘alone’ business…Do you even know how lonely it is?Having to spend each night by yourself…When there’s only one thing you miss? I mean, I am (of course) great company….And it doesn’t really take all that much to see…That when it comes to myself….I don’t mind it being just me. Except for theContinue reading “A simple sum”

Lights: 1 – Zoë: 0

Today was going to be my day. Today was going to be my victory. My coming of age as a strong, self-sufficient and capable woman. It would mark my entrance into the world of crafty handymen and DIY-goddesses and bring about a new era of enlightenment. Or, at least, actual light. Sadly, the fates sawContinue reading “Lights: 1 – Zoë: 0”

No more golden days

As fall begins to color the world around us – I mourn the loss of color in mine. I used to have golden days. Shimmering, bright,filled with an energy that fueled my world. They used to be golden days. Then distance set in,‘Tween you, me and the world.While dark greys color the hours.And even thoughContinue reading “No more golden days”

And then I tell myself…

One from the archives – just to end the week with a flair of drama: And then I tell myself. They tell me to be strong.They tell me to heal.And then I tell myself….Maybe I was happier being unhappy with you. They tell me I’m being strong.They tell me I’m healing.And then I tell myself…HowContinue reading “And then I tell myself…”